THE LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! May 8, 2008

(bear [bare?] with me… I’ve been drinking…)

 

I got my letter!!!!!!!!!!!!! I passed!!!!!!!!!!! No “fitness of character” interview needed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I send in my RSVP and I’m probably being sworn in on June 23!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I AM A LICENSED ATTORNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (OK, in 4 weeks… whatever!!!)

 

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I just wanted to see the letter. That’s all. I needed the hard proof. Oh. My. God. I cannot believe it!!!

 

HOLY CRAP!

 

I guess this means I have no reason to NOT send resumes, huh? …. I just got home. It’s after 1 a.m. and I think I want another drink to fully celebrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Roomie And The Cat, Job Search, Edamame, and Hopeful Weather May 4, 2008

1. Roomie is in and so is her little cat. It’s been kind of funny how the cats have been. Simon is just all chill and the other cat keeps hissing and growling. She hasn’t swatted at him or anything and they’ve gotten about a foot from each other. They’re going to be best friends, I can tell. As for Roomie, she’s pretty chill as well. She had her little 21 year old toy come over last night when she got back from the bars. At first I was slightly annoyed. Then I realized it’s her first night and that she deserves to have whomever spend it with her much like I did with Unofficial. I’m not sure what happened as I put in my ear plugs and went right to sleep.

 

2. Tomorrow I plan on being very proactive. I will wake up early, get myself all together and then do some research online. Said research will be centered around my new job search. I’ve sent Care Bear an email to get her resume so that I can have proper “Attorney” formatting. Haha. Over the weekend I made numerous connections at the restaurant. One is a PARTNER at a large international firm in Beantown. She is in the litigation department. She said she wasn’t sure if they had openings, but she would forward on my resume!! NICE!! The other connections were women (all out to dinner together) who have all worked for firms for years. I believe they are legal assistants or paralegals. They also want me to send them my resume. And, yet another connection… a woman who works for the Harvard Law career services department. She said she could send me postings!!! I am psyched. And will be sending out lots of emails tomorrow.

 

3. Last weekend Unofficial brought over frozen edamame from Trader Joe’s. I loved it. It is almost midnight currently, and I’m cooking some up now. They are fantastic.

 

4. I hope it’s nice out tomorrow. Part of my productive day I would like to have is to go running for the first time since I moved. I’d love to run by the water today. It would be great. Please be nice out!!

 

Other People’s Results, New Place New Roomie, Lots Of Unofficial, Loans and My Little Monster May 3, 2008

1. Congrats to all of my colleagues who have received their letters and passed the MA bar!! My sympathies to those who did not and, as I’ve stated, please let me know if there’s anything I can do. As for myself… I’m still not typing what I know until the letter arrives. For some reason I feel like it will reverse the results mid-mailing if I do so prior to getting hard proof. I am very excited, nonetheless.

 

2. I have been doing a good job of unpacking and getting everything pretty settled at the new place this week. Roomie and her kitty cat move in today, any moment really. I just swiffered the floors and I’m waiting for them to get here. I have to leave mid-afternoon to head to the restaurant, so I hope they get here soon. I’d like to be here for at least a little bit when she first gets here.

 

3. Unofficial has been so cute lately. He spent my first night in the new place with me, which was great. Then, on Thursday night he came over again. The story is funny though. He had a dinner with his little brother from BigBro/BigSis. It was some awards dinner from the BB/BS organization. I was at work. Surprisingly, it got busy for me there so I didn’t leave until about 10 pm. Unofficial and I had tentatively planned on him coming over, nothing firm though. So, I called him when I left work:

 

Me: Where are ya?

 

Unofficial: I’m at [Irish Bar]

 

Me: Where’s that?

 

Unofficial: Across from where you live.

 

How flippin’ cute! He was waiting for me. I raced home, threw on some jeans and met him at the bar. There was some sort of Irish jam session going on. It was fun. He stayed the night and it was nice. I like when he stays with me at the new place. I just like him. Period.

 

 

4. I almost threw up in my mouth yesterday when I realized that my loans come due soon. Sallie Mae was telling me that my private loans were going to be due at $908/month starting in June and my federal at $485/month. WHAAAAAT!? I’m currently waitressing. This does not look good. Haha. I called and my private will be at 780-something and my fed may go down to $60. This is only temporarily, of course, but seriously… anything helps. I better find an attorney position ASAP.

 

5. Tonight I have to work. It’s Saturday. Somehow this always surprises Unofficial. Why, I’m not sure. I met him while I was at work on a Saturday night. My schedule hasn’t changed in the 4+ months we’ve been dating. He’s an odd one sometimes. Anywho… He’s going out with a bunch of people tonight and told me to text or call when I get out of work. He loves me. OK, maybe not yet, but he’s sooo heading down that path. Hahaha. I have 2 different outfits all ready for me to change into when I get home from work (if it’s not too late) so that I can meet him and his friends out. Also, we have a date on Monday. Yay!!!!

 

6. Simon is being obnoxious lately. Absolutely 100% obnoxious when I’m sleeping. Much like my friend Random claims that Little Filthy is a Monster, I’ve taken to calling Simon a “little monster” when he wakes me up. How do I get him to STOP messing with the blinds when I’m sleeping??? HELP! It’s the WORST sound ever!

Waiting Game April 23, 2008

I feel like I’m doing a lot of waiting lately. Waiting to move to a new place (Sunday!!! yay!!). Waiting for Unofficial to get his head out of his ass… err… be ready. But, most importantly, waiting for my bar results. This. F’ing. Sucks. I was all fine with the wait until this week. I’ve convinced myself that the results will come out VERY soon.

 

Because of my ability to lie to myself, I’m now in deep anxiety mode. I was scheduled for a double at work today. It’s BEAUTIFUL outside, so we weren’t too busy. I scooted out as quickly as possible and bee-lined it home. I NEEDED to check the mail. Now, mind you, I’m still in Plymouth so it’s a good 30 minute drive between the apartment and work. (Come Sunday, only 15 minutes! Yay!) Regardless, I made the drive just to check my mail.

 

I am now hating the United States Postal Service. Daily, I am disappointed. Yesterday, it was a pamphlet from some local community college (because I definitely need more school right?!). Today, it was a flier from Bed Bath & Beyond. Granted, that $5 coupon on the last page may come in handy due to this move, but seriously……. GIVE. ME. MY. RESULTS. NOW!!!

 

The anxiety, I think, is worse than right before the exam. Honestly. I was pretty crazy right before the exam, too. This is worrisome for me because if I manage to get “crazier” I think it may drive away everyone in my life. Haha. I’m already over-reacting to nothing (literally, nothing) in regards to Unofficial. He and I are *very* good right now. And, I am being crazy because he has become “linked” to someone on that site where you “link” with others and I think it’s someone else he’s dating. So, I googled her and found her facebook… etc etc. Now, nothing has changed with he and I. I just now have a face for the name… which should make me feel a little better because if I’m being catty (and of course I am) I would say that I’m prettier and a better all around package. But, that’s only if I’m being catty… I feel confident with he and I, but this over-riding anxiety makes me insane. I’m trying to be calm, cool and collected like the MSN horoscopes told me to be… hahaha

 

I’ll write about Marathon Monday later. I just needed to vent. There’s been some serious action on this blog the last few days. Lots of visitors and some who are even searching for “bar results snarky runner” and the like. Very cool. You know, you can leave comments too! hahaha.

Frisky Friday… April 18, 2008

1. My shoes and suits, along with some kitchen stuff and books, are now over at the new apartment. Sadly, there is a ridiculous amount of stuff left to bring over. Luckily, I’m loving the apartment more and more…

 

2. Unofficial and I had an impromptu sleepover last night…

 

3. Speaking of Unofficial, his parents popped into the restaurant tonight for drinks before going to a family part. I. LOVE. THEM. And… they love me too! It’s fantastic. I need no other cheerleaders in regards to that boy, the two of them will be enough! They make me smile…

 

4. There may be some news regarding bar passage a lot sooner than previously expected… I’m predicting some sort of information in the very near future.

 

5. Work Crush and his girlfriend are done. Apparently there was a huge blow-out over the weekend. Tonight, he was very curious about what was going on with Unofficial and I, mostly because I was giving Unofficial’s Dad a tour of the restaurant’s private dining areas and introduced him to WC… haha. I told him that I am happy with things. And I am. WC is good for work, but probably not so much for real life.

 

6. I went running again today. Unofficial and I were up so early that I had time to run, tan (shush), pack some boxes, put them in my gas guzzler, drive to the new apartment, unload the car AND unpack most of the boxes… all before work! The run was short but good. I also feel pretty “jacked” from all the box lifting. I can’t wait to wear a dress for Unofficial with some hot heels again!

Jealousy, Roommate finder?, Dreams and Disliking Unofficial March 30, 2008

1. As I mentioned yesterday, I am so excited for Care Bear to have received the offer she did for a new attorney position in Philly. I think, though, that it has had a bad affect on me at work this evening. The last week or so at work have, well, sucked. The money is not like it usually is. Fun Manager said tonight that it could be the way I am at tables… I tried to explain that my tips are still the same… I’m just not getting the tables… I mean I’m making 20% on the tables and selling a good deal but I get shit for tables. Anyway… tonight… I walked (after tipping out the bar, the food runners and the bussers) with less than $200. This should not be happening!!! And, with CB getting the offer she did, it makes me very jealous. Not in a bad way, of course, as I can really truly only be happy for her. However, I hate that I’m basically working my ass off for shit. I want her offer and her job right now. Too bad I need to pass the bar and/or move to Philly for that to happen. UGH!

 

2. Athletic Trainer may have found someone for me to live with? Possibly? He texted me numerous questions (all of which I was sure I had previously answered… but whatever…) and ended the texting with knowing of someone who is looking for a place. The kicker… it’s a dude. Do I worry about living with a guy? Eh… I mean, if he’s neat, not gross and not weird, I should be fine. Although I did send this text: “It would also have to be a dude who didn’t want me…haha.” AT replied: “Well… not wanting you… that might be tough…” He definitely has his charming moments…

 

3. I keep having kind of strange dreams… the kind where you wake up and you think “Huh?!” I will be putting a legal pad and pen by my bed to write the details down. I think it could be important.

 

4. I do not like Unofficial today… why? Because I’m not getting anything I want today. Tomorrow and Monday are my nights off (as per usual) and he has yet to try and make plans with me… this isthe first time since the beginning that he hasn’t at least TRIED to make plans… And… I think I’m starting to miss him… We aren’t talking as much either, so that’s making me miss him I think… I’m not sure if this is a good sign or a pathetic sign…

More Random Thoughts… March 29, 2008

1. My best friend from law school, let’s call her Care Bear, got an offer from a firm in Philly today. She had the interview last night. My pretend law school boyfriend, Meat Head, suggested her for the position. The offer was about 3 times what she’s making now and I could not be happier for her! I’m just so proud!! The best thing about this: She moves to Philly and I take a trip every other month to visit!! The flights from Providence (quick drive from me) to Philly are RIDICULOUSLY cheap!!! YAY!!

 

2. Unofficial (maybe no he doesn’t need a new name, right?) texted me tonight. It went something like this “Just a friendly hello. You are probably at work. I hope you are well and the drive home the other night wasn’t too hard. I’m sorry about how things turned out.” I, of course, read this to mean: Things are over. So I sent him one back: “It was fine. Your message makes it sound like we completely ended things. I was under the impression we hadn’t.” Him: “We have not.” And then some other texts back and forth. It was nice to hear from him and to have him confirm that things aren’t over. I was worried that he would decide to back off even more than we had discussed because he felt guilty about hurting me. I kind of miss him already. We usually have plans for my nights off by this time in the week… it’s weird not having those set…

 

3. At work a week or so ago I won a contest. I almost always win the contests at work. You may be asking yourself, what kind of contests do servers have? Well, we have lots. Usually they are selling contests… sell the most –blank– and win –blank–. I am very good at these types of contests. The prizes are either a bottle of booze or food. Before the new year I won a fillet dinner. *YUM* About 3 months ago I won a bottle of Absolut 100. I have yet to open it. HAHA. Last weekend I won a bottle of Smirnoff White Grape. Tonight, I learned to make a White Grape Cosmo! Fantastic!!

 

4. I am starting to wonder how long this no sex thing is going to last for me. It’s been since Saturday… and I’m struggling. I think I may be part man when it comes to my sexual appetite… Maybe I’ll at least make out with Work Crush tomorrow night… haha. Ok, doubtful… but I like to keep the hope alive…

 

5. It rained lightly tonight, or must have because the ground was wet when I left work, and it smelled like spring… I LOVE the smell of spring rain!!!

The Outcome And Other Random Thoughts Of The Day… March 27, 2008

1. This is all I will say about the discussion I had with Unofficial (new name coming soon… maybe…). The outcome of it is this: We will continue to date however we are going to “take a step back and try to start over.” I’m not dumb and neither is he. No one can ever REALLY “start over.” I do think, though, that we can manage to push pause and start back up slowly. I will probably try to date others (or just make out with Work Crush… see #3). Sex is off the table until he’s ready for something committed. It’s a non-negotiable at this point with me. I think it’s a good thing. We will go on dates and see if that connection really is there without the sex stuff getting in the way. In the end, we will find out if we really are going to work. Neither of us want to end things and I would hate myself for not trying.

 

2. One of the women bartenders I work with said something that struck a cord with me. I walked in on a conversation she was having with one of the crazies I work with, so this had nothing to do with me, but it made me think. “I would rather regret the things I did as opposed to those I did not do.” I would rather regret trying things with Unofficial and have it not work out as opposed to walking away and never knowing.

 

3. Aaaah… Work Crush… We’ve been engaging in quite a bit of flirtation as of late and the timing could not be any better for me. I asked if he wanted to go get a drink with me last night, figuring I would need one after my conversation with Unofficial. Let me say that I have never really thought WC was interested in me until very recently. It became clear to me last night that he, indeed, is interested. Sadly, timing for him is not fantastic as he is trying to work things out with his awful (ok, maybe not … who knows) girlfriend. Knowing him, however, we’ll be making out before long. Let’s not discuss how infatuated with the idea of doing that I am. And I no longer feel guilty about it due to #1 above. Something to look forward to…

 

4. Baseball season has begun!! I cannot begin to explain how excited this makes me! Once I’m closer to Boston, I’ll be even more psyched! GO RED SOX!!!

 

5. Athletic Trainer and I have been texting and sometimes talking on the phone. The talking on the phone is usually only when I am drunk and bored. For some reason, I will call him and not Unofficial. Maybe it’s because I’m hiding the “crazy” from Unofficial and I don’t give a shit about what AT thinks. He has told me that he now thinks he wants kids. My exact response: “Are you fucking kidding me with this bullshit?!?!?!” As I may or may not have mentioned previously, that was kind of a big thing for me… he had always said he didn’t want kids. Why is it that the minute I take myself out of the equation, the men morph into exactly what I want? OK, he’s not exactly what I want because he’s still him with his issues… but you get my point.

 

6. Unofficial bought me a beautiful leather bag for my birthday. It’s a Fossil Executive Tote. I am in love with it. Can you see my problem with letting him get away? He bought this for me because of his unfailing belief that I have passed the MA bar and will need such a bag for work. This is my first gift from a man I have been involved with. No, I am not kidding. Yes, I am aware of how sad that is. Let me just love it…

 

Baby, It’s Cold Outside… March 12, 2008

Ok, well I’m not completely sure that statement is accurate…but I’m making an educated guess based on how cold it is inside. It’s absolutely possible that I am purely cold blooded and can never really be warm, however. I don’t think I like that idea.

 

Simon (aka Cat-Dog) has been very annoying in the mornings as of late. He has taken to pawing at my bedroom door (because yes, I’m mean and don’t let him sleep with me - he moves and plays with things on my bedroom tables and the blinds…ugh!). When he’s bored with the pawing he cries. And when the crying doesn’t get him what he wants, he stands up on his little legs (again, I’m assuming since how else would he manage this feat) and grabs hold of the door knob and jangles it! I swear!! He plays with that knob anywhere from 5 minutes to like half an hour. I could take it 5 minutes before having to open the door today. Maybe he’s the best alarm clock I’ve ever had… or the most annoying cat-dog. Jury still out.

 

I now have a definite date by which I must be out of the condo. Exciting because it means the end of my long fight with this rent payment monthly. Scary because I need to find enough money to be able to move into a different place by then… ugh!

 

As you noticed, I did not end up writing about that guy who used to work for Glamour. Read about it on Jezebel if you’re all that interested. My energy is better spent on something else I’m sure.

 

I have to work a double today. It makes me happier than words can describe to think that one day soon the term “work a double” will have no meaning in my life. I know attorneys work late. I’m OK with working late. They do not, however, work doubles. This makes my day to think about.

 

My unofficial boyfriend and I have made plans for my birthday next weekend. By plans, I mean solidified that we will be doing something together. What? I’m not sure and I don’t think it matters. He makes me smile. A lot. Maybe he’ll be my official boyfriend soon. Could I sound more like a 7th grader?! Love it!!

 

I might be making some changes to my blog to help me better tell my stories. I like the way Random Esquire has his set up. The whole “cast of characters” and such is very appealing to me, especially with the multitude of characters in my life. We’ll see how much energy I exert into any changes. Haha. Go read his blog though. It’s THOROUGHLY enjoyable! I’ve become a big fan.

 

And now to go work a double… with many of the aforementioned characters. Fun times!

The Next Big Step March 10, 2008

It’s been just over a week since the exam. It came and went with minimal pain. There is not even a doubt this time that I passed. Walking away from the exam, I felt that I could not have known any more and that I MUST have just passed it. The wait time is far less this round… We found out the beginning of November for the July exam, this time we’ll find out the beginning of may which is just 6 weeks away!! I’m already planning who I want to go and watch me be sworn in and what I’ll do to celebrate.

 

While it feels great not to be worrying about the exam anymore, I also have other things to be focused on. The end of my lease is coming up and that means that I need to find a new place! I’ve been looking on craig’s list on a daily basis. I have not, however, gone to look at any of the places I’ve seen listed. I think I will make some calls today and take a look at a few tomorrow. I’m planning on moving closer to Boston. There are so many benefits to this move. First, I’ll be paying FAR less rent. $1350 a month is killing me. Second, I’ll be in an area better suited to my age. Plymouth is great, but there are few places for young professionals. I don’t really have any friends in Plymouth either. If I move closer to Boston, I’ll be closer to a few of my friends and I’ll be able to meet new people. Third, I’ll more likely than not work in Boston once I get those lovely results back from the bar. Less commute equals more sleep!! haha. And, finally, I’ll be closer to the man. I would never make this move BECAUSE of him, but it’s a definite bonus. I think that we will be able to definitely move things forward with things when the distance isn’t such an inconvenience.

 

If the search for my new home weren’t enough, I’m also going to be actively searching for a new job. The whole waitressing thing is wearing me thin. My potential as a lawyer needs to be tapped into and I plan on making that switch soon. Obviously, the new home is priority at the moment because I DO have a job that I can continue for the time being.

 

And that’s basically the update on my life since the bar… I’m going to post in a few minutes on the ridiculousness that has occurred on Glamour Magazine’s website in the past few days.