I, amazingly, have been to the gym twice this week. I hadn’t been for like 2 months. I feel proud… haha. In fact, it’s slightly surprising how good I feel after working out. Aren’t you supposed to be sore? Me, not so much. I think I must keep that feeling in mind when debating whether to go to the gym or to sit on my ass and watch tv.
Lately working has been quite annoying. It’s hard to be a “lowly” waitress while you have the education and degree of a lawyer (just no damn license… stupid bar exam!… still bitter). People speak to you in a different manner and question you. However, never was I ever questioned so much or spoken to in such a manner when under the “law student” guise. I can be incredibly judgmental, so it’s probably wrong (hypocritical) of me to to get upset about this but whatever, I am a tad mad.
Even some of my managers have been getting me annoyed because of their ridiculous comments. I work in this amaazingly beautiful 200+ year old colonial (old captain’s) house. It’s supposedly haunted. Anyhow, we have a great double sided fireplace in the middle of one of our tavern areas. Today, I lit a fire in it during lunch. It was barely 50 degrees out and it seemed like a fantastic idea. I had already spoken with one of my managers about it, it was really her idea I think. Well, our “operational manager” (whatever that means) comes down and sees the fire. He asks who lit it … it was obviously me because I tend to take charge of the fireplace since I’m so good at it. And then, he’s like “Who was asked?” ummm… I spoke w/ M already. Honestly… whatever.
I know I sound like a little brat but I think I am just getting sick of this industry.
Something else has been bothering me as of late. When I found out about my poor performance on the bar exam, I emailed all of my girlfriends from law school to fill them in. I wanted to get it out of the way and make it so that they didn’t feel awkward contacting me. I’m heard from K, B and R. A is supposed to be one of my best friends and she has made no time to talk to me. I know she’s busy but come on. KB has not contacted me. P has not contacted me and neither has N or AA. I’m so beyond bullshit about this. Same thing for my friend J. I sent him a text with the news and I’ve heard nothing.
Am I being stupid? Shouldn’t they have tried to reach out? Is it unreasonable for me to be so upset? What would you do in these circumstances? Is there anyone out there? hahahhaa…
