Other People’s Results, New Place New Roomie, Lots Of Unofficial, Loans and My Little Monster May 3, 2008

1. Congrats to all of my colleagues who have received their letters and passed the MA bar!! My sympathies to those who did not and, as I’ve stated, please let me know if there’s anything I can do. As for myself… I’m still not typing what I know until the letter arrives. For some reason I feel like it will reverse the results mid-mailing if I do so prior to getting hard proof. I am very excited, nonetheless.

 

2. I have been doing a good job of unpacking and getting everything pretty settled at the new place this week. Roomie and her kitty cat move in today, any moment really. I just swiffered the floors and I’m waiting for them to get here. I have to leave mid-afternoon to head to the restaurant, so I hope they get here soon. I’d like to be here for at least a little bit when she first gets here.

 

3. Unofficial has been so cute lately. He spent my first night in the new place with me, which was great. Then, on Thursday night he came over again. The story is funny though. He had a dinner with his little brother from BigBro/BigSis. It was some awards dinner from the BB/BS organization. I was at work. Surprisingly, it got busy for me there so I didn’t leave until about 10 pm. Unofficial and I had tentatively planned on him coming over, nothing firm though. So, I called him when I left work:

 

Me: Where are ya?

 

Unofficial: I’m at [Irish Bar]

 

Me: Where’s that?

 

Unofficial: Across from where you live.

 

How flippin’ cute! He was waiting for me. I raced home, threw on some jeans and met him at the bar. There was some sort of Irish jam session going on. It was fun. He stayed the night and it was nice. I like when he stays with me at the new place. I just like him. Period.

 

 

4. I almost threw up in my mouth yesterday when I realized that my loans come due soon. Sallie Mae was telling me that my private loans were going to be due at $908/month starting in June and my federal at $485/month. WHAAAAAT!? I’m currently waitressing. This does not look good. Haha. I called and my private will be at 780-something and my fed may go down to $60. This is only temporarily, of course, but seriously… anything helps. I better find an attorney position ASAP.

 

5. Tonight I have to work. It’s Saturday. Somehow this always surprises Unofficial. Why, I’m not sure. I met him while I was at work on a Saturday night. My schedule hasn’t changed in the 4+ months we’ve been dating. He’s an odd one sometimes. Anywho… He’s going out with a bunch of people tonight and told me to text or call when I get out of work. He loves me. OK, maybe not yet, but he’s sooo heading down that path. Hahaha. I have 2 different outfits all ready for me to change into when I get home from work (if it’s not too late) so that I can meet him and his friends out. Also, we have a date on Monday. Yay!!!!

 

6. Simon is being obnoxious lately. Absolutely 100% obnoxious when I’m sleeping. Much like my friend Random claims that Little Filthy is a Monster, I’ve taken to calling Simon a “little monster” when he wakes me up. How do I get him to STOP messing with the blinds when I’m sleeping??? HELP! It’s the WORST sound ever!

I Hate Thinking Of Titles For These… April 11, 2008

1. It was in the 70’s today! I was thrilled. Of course, I decided that meant I should go running for the first time in a while. This was not the best idea due to the high temperatures and my body revolting. I only went for like 20 minutes… my lungs were burning, the legs just would not move fast enough for me. I am making it official, it is time for me to run like daily. Absolutely. Plus, in like a week, my legs will be even more tempting for the men in my life

 

2. Work was more bearable tonight. I didn’t want to kill people for more than 3 seconds, so that’s a good thing. Sadly, Work Crush only works Saturday not both weekend nights. On the plus side, my section will be right near his bar area that he’s assigned to for the night. This makes me smile…

 

3. I woke yesterday morning and my freezer door was opened. How does this happen in the middle of the night? Anyway, I touched one of the chicken breasts that were frozen prior to this… it was not so frozen. I closed the freezer door and made a note in my head not to eat anything out of that freezer now. I’m just too lazy (eh… busy) to throw everything out just yet. One bonus, it means I don’t have to go through everything and determine what is salvageable for the new apartment… everything is now trash! haha.

 

4. I enjoy walking around naked. The first 30 minutes that I’m awake rarely include clothing. I make coffee naked, check email naked, etc. This is something I will miss when I have a roommate in a couple weeks.

 

5. Hockey players used to pique my interest, in college. Now, I just find them to be drunks who can’t get the balls to actually have a conversation with a girl they find attractive. A bunch came in after a game tonight (this is a non-pro type thing… although one of them is a cute retired pro hockey player… mmm). It was late and I was trying to help clean up. I walked by this little group of them a few times as I was bringing bottles and glasses back to the bar. They made noises at me. Like hooting, but not really and just strange noises. I ignored them. This no longer amuses me… it makes me miss Unofficial even more than I already do. I seem to have grown up!

 

6. Spring is a good time to start drinking margaritas. Just an FYI.

Drive Me Crazy April 8, 2008

While I am aware of the fact that I probably should not be talking about Athletic Trainer right now, I’m going to anyway.

 

We were texting because of the Memphis/Kansas basketball game tonight. The two of us have a connection to John Calipari, coach of Memphis and we were rooting for his team to win tonight.

 

Well, as we all know now, Memphis lost. I went and drank more with a few friends and then I called him when I was on my way home. AT proceeded to tell me that he was in a bar and about to hook up with a 21 year old!!! 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE’S 41!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU F’ING KIDDING ME!?!?!?!

 

Yes, I know that I should not even care…. but of course I do!! I did not spend 4 years with him in it for no reason. 21!?!? Seriously!?!?! She was born when he was 20. GROSS.

 

Why am I so annoyed? Seriously?! And it’s funny because he asked the same thing. He mentioned Unofficial, and I had to re-iterate that we are dating other people etc. Somehow, though, I am really jealous. I hate this. I am more jealous of AT than I am of the fact that I am pretty sure Unofficial had a date tonight.

 

I do not think that’s a good thing…

Baby, It’s Cold Outside… March 12, 2008

Ok, well I’m not completely sure that statement is accurate…but I’m making an educated guess based on how cold it is inside. It’s absolutely possible that I am purely cold blooded and can never really be warm, however. I don’t think I like that idea.

 

Simon (aka Cat-Dog) has been very annoying in the mornings as of late. He has taken to pawing at my bedroom door (because yes, I’m mean and don’t let him sleep with me - he moves and plays with things on my bedroom tables and the blinds…ugh!). When he’s bored with the pawing he cries. And when the crying doesn’t get him what he wants, he stands up on his little legs (again, I’m assuming since how else would he manage this feat) and grabs hold of the door knob and jangles it! I swear!! He plays with that knob anywhere from 5 minutes to like half an hour. I could take it 5 minutes before having to open the door today. Maybe he’s the best alarm clock I’ve ever had… or the most annoying cat-dog. Jury still out.

 

I now have a definite date by which I must be out of the condo. Exciting because it means the end of my long fight with this rent payment monthly. Scary because I need to find enough money to be able to move into a different place by then… ugh!

 

As you noticed, I did not end up writing about that guy who used to work for Glamour. Read about it on Jezebel if you’re all that interested. My energy is better spent on something else I’m sure.

 

I have to work a double today. It makes me happier than words can describe to think that one day soon the term “work a double” will have no meaning in my life. I know attorneys work late. I’m OK with working late. They do not, however, work doubles. This makes my day to think about.

 

My unofficial boyfriend and I have made plans for my birthday next weekend. By plans, I mean solidified that we will be doing something together. What? I’m not sure and I don’t think it matters. He makes me smile. A lot. Maybe he’ll be my official boyfriend soon. Could I sound more like a 7th grader?! Love it!!

 

I might be making some changes to my blog to help me better tell my stories. I like the way Random Esquire has his set up. The whole “cast of characters” and such is very appealing to me, especially with the multitude of characters in my life. We’ll see how much energy I exert into any changes. Haha. Go read his blog though. It’s THOROUGHLY enjoyable! I’ve become a big fan.

 

And now to go work a double… with many of the aforementioned characters. Fun times!

Rantings…. November 19, 2007

And now, for some rantings…

 

If’ I’m at the gym working out with headphones on… do not come up and talk to me or try to hit on me.

 

I was watching Sex and the City and it was the “you can’t change a man” episode. I realized two things: 1) I am Miranda in so many ways. In this episode she gets annoyed with Steve’s cuddling… ummm… sound familiar? haha. 2) Carrie and Big remind me of AT and I. Being back in his life and nothing changing. UGH. I still haven’t talked to him… and we’re at 2 months of silence now. Thoughts of him haunt me on an occasional basis… ugh.

 

One thing that disgusted me today: Man bites 22-month old’s lip off How amazingly disturbing is this?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!?!??!

 

Ok… I think that’s it for now.

 

Wait.

 

I lied

 

Has anyone been reading Mike Cherico’s blog on Glamour? Let’s just talk about how much of a mess this guy quite obviously is. Not only is he the most fake blogger ever… he’s not truthful and honest with his readers…. he makes stories up… I could go on… Anyway… he is the worst person for Glamour to have blogging. I mean, they’re a women’s magazine and they have this shit head of a person writing about dating women. I understand that he might be confused or whatever… but he’s just horrible about some of these women. I’m very anti Mr. Cherico’s need for drama and lack of forthrightness. What do you think?

We Appreciate You, Here’s a Bottle of Tequila… November 12, 2007

Ever been in a situation where you just didn’t feel appreciated? Maybe you felt that you were being taken advantage of? This was the theme of my weekend. I love being that person who an employer/friend/boyfriend/family member feels that they can rely on. I like to be depended upon and helpful and needed. I like to be the one people lean on.

 

HOWEVER

 

I do NOT appreciate being taken for a fool or as someone that can be walked all over. My employers tested me and my resolve in this. I work a good amount of hours… and shifts. Usually, it’s 5 nights and 1 or 2 days, always the same as a night shift (so… a double). Manager M knows to give me full days off in a row… although I tend to pick up at least 1 shift during those days…but it’s nice to have the option…

 

REGARDLESS

 

I worked Friday night and we were kind of busy. It was nothing insane, but good enough. I had to be back at the restaurant at 11 on Saturday morning to hostess during lunch, then I was going to change and waitress for dinner. Well, come 3 pm the managers think I should continue hostessing through dinner and basically give up $200. I’m a team player, and I have a hard time saying “no” but I did say that I needed more compensation than the $12 or $13 an hour I was being paid.

 

Let me back up a bit and tell you, before the story continues, that I was wearing these shoes that I’d never worn before. They’re super cute heels that I was fine in (and knew I would be) during the “brunch” shift of hostessing. Now, mind you, I did not plan on working as a hostess during the night.

 

I was on my feet for over 11 hours in those heels. I was tired, hungry and my feet wanted to kill me. All I wanted was a little bit of coddling, some wine and food. We had a horribly busy night and people were jackasses. So… I had a bit of a breakdown because I started feeling unappreciated. Manager M had brought me down to the liquor room and was showing me a row of bottles I was allowed to choose from. The bottles were all promo items we got but it’s stuff we don’t sell. For some reason I just broke down. She had been asking me what was wrong for a few minutes because, apparently, I was acting weird. Then, finally, I just started crying. I’m not sure if it was due to the hunger, sleep deprivation or aching tootsies. All I know is that I made my point.

 

Manager M told me that she felt bad that I was feeling unappreciated and taken advantage of and that she didn’t want me to be frustrated. She then led me up to the office where her, Manager J and I ordered dinner, ate and had some wine. I was in a much better mood. I am convinced that when I get like that I just need to be fed.

 

After all that, I went back to the liquor room and took the bottle of Cuervo 1800 (1 liter). There was some Absolut 100 , Corzo (black and clear bottles), some dewars stuff and then bacardi raz. I don’t drink bacardi or dewars. And Abs. 100 scares me. So… I was torn between the tequilas. I had no idea about corzo. I looked at the size and the corzo was 750 ml as opposed to the 1l of 1800. Decision made. hahaha.

 

My pain and misery earned me a bottle of 1800… what would you have taken?

 

(p.s. I finally learned how to separate paragraphs!!)

Seriously!? November 8, 2007

So last night I went on and babbled about how disappointed I am with some of my friends… After writing, I wasn’t sure if I was being unreasonable. I went to bed, had some super strange dreams, and then awoke to this text message from A “I passed NJ bar!!”

 

SERIOUSLY!?

 

You can’t make time to call me about the fact that I did NOT pass any bar exam…. and now you’re texting me to declare your passing of a 2nd bar exam?!?!?!?!!??! I am sooooo aggravated at the moment. This is supposed to be one of my closest friends… She’s “supposedly” (from what others say) moving in with her boyfriend and she hasn’t even told me about it. I understand her work schedule is crazy, but send an email or something. WTF!?

 

I called K to see what she thought about it all. Now, K and A do NOT get along and K never understood my loyalty to A. So, maybe she wasn’t the best person to talk to about this… but she would tell me if I was being unreasonable or not, regardless of the person. She doesn’t think I am. I told her all about our other friends not contacting me… and she thinks it’s shitty too.

 

Who are these people that I call friends? I’m really just kind of disappointed in a lot of them. It makes me worry about what is to come. I mean, we’ve all moved away from each other but we used to be super tight. We’ve declared that we’ll maintain that closeness, but it’s only been like 7 months and it’s looking like that’s not going to happen… this makes me sad. I know that people are brought into your life for certain reasons and sometimes for just a small period of time. Those that are meant to be in your life will be and will make the effort. It’s hard to realize that your friendship may not be as important to others as it is to you.

 

Am I being unreasonable? How would you react?

All worked out November 8, 2007

I, amazingly, have been to the gym twice this week. I hadn’t been for like 2 months. I feel proud… haha. In fact, it’s slightly surprising how good I feel after working out. Aren’t you supposed to be sore? Me, not so much. I think I must keep that feeling in mind when debating whether to go to the gym or to sit on my ass and watch tv.

 

Lately working has been quite annoying. It’s hard to be a “lowly” waitress while you have the education and degree of a lawyer (just no damn license… stupid bar exam!… still bitter). People speak to you in a different manner and question you. However, never was I ever questioned so much or spoken to in such a manner when under the “law student” guise. I can be incredibly judgmental, so it’s probably wrong (hypocritical) of me to to get upset about this but whatever, I am a tad mad.

 

Even some of my managers have been getting me annoyed because of their ridiculous comments. I work in this amaazingly beautiful 200+ year old colonial (old captain’s) house. It’s supposedly haunted. Anyhow, we have a great double sided fireplace in the middle of one of our tavern areas. Today, I lit a fire in it during lunch. It was barely 50 degrees out and it seemed like a fantastic idea. I had already spoken with one of my managers about it, it was really her idea I think. Well, our “operational manager” (whatever that means) comes down and sees the fire. He asks who lit it … it was obviously me because I tend to take charge of the fireplace since I’m so good at it. And then, he’s like “Who was asked?” ummm… I spoke w/ M already. Honestly… whatever.

 

I know I sound like a little brat but I think I am just getting sick of this industry.

 

Something else has been bothering me as of late. When I found out about my poor performance on the bar exam, I emailed all of my girlfriends from law school to fill them in. I wanted to get it out of the way and make it so that they didn’t feel awkward contacting me. I’m heard from K, B and R. A is supposed to be one of my best friends and she has made no time to talk to me. I know she’s busy but come on. KB has not contacted me. P has not contacted me and neither has N or AA. I’m so beyond bullshit about this. Same thing for my friend J. I sent him a text with the news and I’ve heard nothing.

 

Am I being stupid? Shouldn’t they have tried to reach out? Is it unreasonable for me to be so upset? What would you do in these circumstances? Is there anyone out there? hahahhaa…