Tuesday Troubles October 20, 2009

1. This new job is verrrry interesting. I’ve been drafting non-disclosures left and right. Marking up franchise contracts and Memorandums of Understanding… Oh, and helping to fire people. It’s bizarre. I’ve never sat through someone in a big kid job being fired. It’s horrifying. I’m trying to use what I know to be my strong points in order to contribute to the random happenings. One key thing is my slightly OCD organizational ability. That is something that will help me manage all of this very easily.

 

2. A hockey player I used to loooooove just got married. He married a girl he’s been dating since we were in college. From what I remember she’s nice. She’s definitely gorgeous and they look beautiful together. It just reminds me that everyone keeps moving forward. Sometimes, I get stuck in the past. I am not sure why, but it happens. As you’ll soon see…

 

3. Unofficial and I had lunch yesterday. Why? Well, I work near him now, so why not? Yeah. Ok. Dumb. I’m well aware of my problem here but before you get all high and mighty, you’ll see how this will never happen again… as we’re chatting and being “friends” I ask about the girl he’s been dating. He says things are good. Then I say “Are we calling her girlfriend yet?” I say it in a snarky type way (strange, I know) not really expecting an answer… and then… “yes, I am calling her girlfriend now.” WAIT. A. SECOND. I’m sorry. What!?!? I can’t even explain the outrageous look I had on my face. And of course it got slightly uncomfortable. And I lost my appetite. I know I shouldn’t care… but I do. I mean, wasn’t he not able to commit? What changed? His work life certainly hasn’t… it’s just as screwed up!! Argh. It completely took me by surprise. And then I got mad. Why did he tell me then? Why not before when we’ve talked on the phone? He said it’s because he wanted to tell me in person. And didn’t I have a boyfriend, so why does it matter? I just glared. He’s such an ass. So, I thanked him for lunch and said good bye. When I got home after work I de-friended him on facebook and deleted him from my skype contacts. Childish? Maybe. Important? Yes. I need to cut him out. Sucks, but must be done.

 

4. Unfortunately cutting him out did not keep him away from my dreams. I am not sure if I was getting sick or had an adverse reaction to the news Unofficial gave me, either way I went to bed relatively early. I fell into a VERY deep sleep but had this extremely long dream about Unofficial. His mom was having a party at their home and I was there. Unofficial and I were having these crazy conversations about what he told me. It wasn’t a great time. And at one point he basically told me to stop following him. So I said good bye. “Good Bye, Unofficial.” Turned on my heels and went to leave. I was chatting with his mom and she was complaining about his girlfriend. “She’s too young (23) and annoying. Why isn’t he with you… ” It was hard. I woke up and was pretty confused. I hate dreams sometimes.

 

5. I’m running a marathon this weekend. I’ll let you know how it goes.

 

6. Do cheese and crackers count as dinner?

Starting my first *real* week… October 12, 2009

1. Today is the first day of my first REAL week at work. That means no restaurant shifts, only office. Yay! It’s definitely going to be strange having my nights back. I wonder what I’ll do…

 

2. Last week went well I think. I made some pretty big contributions already. This made me feel really good. I mean, I hadn’t used THAT part of my brain much in FOREVER. It’s nice to know that it still works.

 

3. During my first week, I got my first non-work related emails. Well, the one from RE started as work-related and then went down real quick. One of my friends from law school emailed me on Friday to say “hi.” She has officially added me to her list of procrastination tools. Fabulous. One sad thing… twitter is blocked at this place. So lame. I need a way around that. Do you have any ideas? Are there any sites that can re-route to twitter or something? I can’t really download anything… although I guess I could try tweetdeck… yes, that’s what I’ll do this morning. Let’s see how quickly I get “spoken to” by IT. Haha.

 

4. Every once in a while thoughts of Unofficial rear their ugly head. I hate when that happens. I feel loss and guilt all at the same time. I do very much miss him, although I’m not sure how. I speak with him on a pretty regular basis, so it’s not like we live in radio silence. We probably should though. The guilt is towards Accountant. We’re good but I’m bored. And maybe it’s because I’ve been too self-involved with searching for a job and trying to get my life in order… Ah!

 

5. I will do the same thing with my bookshelf as Random Esq. has done. I’ll post it tonight. I just don’t have time to take the pic and upload, etc. So be on the look out for that.

 

6. Mass bar takers – deep breaths. You’ve still got some time, which sucks, but you’ll be OK. I suggest telling everyone you know to not even mention anything about it until you bring it up first (esp. those who keep asking you anything about the exam and results).

 

7. Ok, that’s all for now. I must get to the office. Have a great holiday!

Life Gets In The Way… October 8, 2009

1. I did. POV’s right. I abandoned you. But it’s been a crazy 6 months… and I’m going to definitely be better. Starting now. I will try my best to update you on all of the pertinent info.

 

2. I guess I should start with the biggest news… ready for it? I got a new job! I’m in my first week right now. It’s pretty crazy. I’ll be slightly cryptic with the job so sorry for that… I’m in-house at a biotech co. It’s DEFINITELY not where I saw myself. But, it’s quite intriguing and I look forward to learning a whole ton. I am SURE I will have some fun stories.

 

3. You cannot even imagine how happy I am to be able to have my evenings and weekends mostly back. I know there will be a HUGE learning curve and I’ll still be working late. However, I’m (mostly) done at the restaurant. I’ll be working a few private events here or there for extra $, but that’s about it. Making plans with friends is going to be so much fun!!

 

4. Roommate is fine. There’s nothing exciting there. We get along well enough. I’m not going to lie, I’ll be pretty excited when I can finally live alone again one day… but that’s a bit away… haha

 

5. Now to make this interactive – I’m figuring out what I should keep in my office. You know, little things to make my life easier/happier. What do you suggest?