Quickie Because It’s Late November 30, 2008

1. I’ve been super busy. Lots of work and bopping around for the holiday etc. I’m sorry.

 

2. Unofficial and I are still at a stand still. It’s been over 2 months since I last saw him. We rarely speak. I’m slowly learning to be OK with it…

 

3. But maybe it’s because there’s someone “new.” Well, it’s the Accountant. I’ll give a more detailed version of the story when I’m less tired. Short of the long of it is that we basically spent the entire weekend together and there is something very good there. And I think we’re both interested in seeing what happens now… he likes me, always has. I am slightly shocked still.

 

4. We did very little sleeping. I’m tired. There’s nothing more of real interest to write about just now. More to come…

Mid-Morning Thoughts November 17, 2008

1. My new business cards came in today. They look fantabulous! I love them. They are far better than the last set, mostly because they are heavier and cut correctly! All I need is a little card holder for my purse so that they don’t get all bent etc.

 

2. As it gets closer, I am getting more excited for my trip to Philly. It’s going to be pretty fantastic. Care Bear will be there as will one of my other good girl friends. I need to figure out a name for her on here… hmmm… Anyway, it’s just going to be such a good time! I’m really looking forward to it.

 

3. Random and I are in a race to see who can get their Storm first. I’m pretty sure I’ll win since my local store has me on the VIP list to receive one of the 10 they will be getting on Friday. I guess I mixed up the days in all of my excitement, it comes out on Friday. That’s better anyway because it gives me one more shift to work before buying it. This little purchase is slightly going to break me (for like a day or two) but I think it’s worth it long term.

 

4. No word from Unofficial still. Honestly, I have not had any compulsion to contact him either. I mean, if I REALLY wanted, I would just email him or get his number from his signature line in one of his last emails to me. Yet, I don’t want to. I’m ridiculously OK with it. It’s strange but obviously good.

I Can’t Think of a Title… Ha Ha. November 14, 2008

1.  Today has been a very strange day.  I am out of the wedding I was in for next summer.  And I’m OK with it.  I’m pretty sure a “friend” of mine is keeping a secret as to her latest man b/c it’s someone I have not such a great history with.   Which… to say… is funny because all I care is that she’s happy and that he’s good to her, not he and I’s issues… but whatever.  Ummm… what else?  I bought a roundtrip flight to visit some people… An old friend reconnected.  AND I made amends with another friend who I’ve sucked with.  *Sigh*

 

2.  So, the wedding… Audrey Hepburn and I have been weird for about a month now.  I am not sure why and it’s been bothering me a lot.  I initiated a chat today because I needed to know what the deal was, and, I felt like she was probably kicking me out of the wedding.  Her engagement party is coming up and I have the night off for it.  Because I figured she was going to boot me, I started talking with Care Bear the other day about possibly going to visit her the weekend of the engagement party.  I have 4 days in a row off, so why not.  Well, the conversation was tough and, I’m pretty sure we’ll never be really close again.  And… I feel OK about it all.  I mean, I feel like she makes me out to be the bad person but I’m over it.  I shouldn’t be in her wedding…  I fully agree.

 

3.  Because of the above, I bought a roundrip ticket to Philly to see Care Bear.  I feel like I really need her right now.  I need all of the girls.  It will be good for me.  I always feel better after seeing them.  I will go for the weekend that I should be at the engagement party.  I am foregoing Fake Big Sis’s christmas party in order to go down to PA, but that’s OK.  I’m not really drinking right now any way and that’s always a shit show.  When I pressed the “confirm reservation” button, I got all excited.  I like having something to look forward to.   And… I feel like it’ll help a lot.

 

4.  As for the “friend”… She and AH are close and I’ve always very much respected her.  However, to intentionally keep something from me… I am not OK with that.  I think it’s petty and silly and insulting.  Insulting because it shows how little she thinks of me.  And… I’m over it.   The two of them.  Great girls.  Good hearts.  I’m out.  People come into our lives for reasons and they leave when those reasons no longer exist.  I’m completely OK with whatever happens.  I can’t be too upset or worried…. I’m far too busy and refuse to have relationships with females that are as complicated as the one with Unofficial.

 

4.  The reconnection is a friend I’ve had for years.  We had a drunken night… I almost immediately regretted it.  I was in a bad place.  A dark and twisty place.  I’m sure I mentioned it back then.  Anywho… I distanced.  It’s a theme you’ll see in this entry.  So yeah.  And then I met Cuddler.  And then Athletic Trainer and I started again.  And then Unofficial.  For some reason, I was so mortified by what occured that I was unable to keep him in my life for the time.  And then I got busy etc.  So today… after I’ve had a day of work, emotional talks, acceptance of future plans changing and the like… I got a text from him saying he misses me and wants to be friends again.  And so the texting back and forth began and then a phone call.  We’re going to have dinner some night soon.  I’m glad.  HE is a good, true and amazing friend… he always has been.  It makes everything else that happened seem unimportant.

 

5.  And the amends.  I have been a very bad friend to one person, not on purpose, but I’ve seen that I am.  I made contact with her to make amends the other day.  She responded today.  And we are good.  Her and I will also do something soon, maybe even tomorrow night.  This also makes up for what happened today because SHE is also a great friend.  I am truly grateful that she came into my life when she did and I will be making the effort to fix things.  This one, I can honestly put on me.

 

6.  Unofficial and I have not attempted to contact each other since last Friday.  I’m OK with it.

 

7.  I have training for pro bono Bankruptcy cases tomorrow morning.  I’m excited.  Someone also suggested I look at CPCS of MA.  I’m keeping busy and learning a lot.  It’s great.

 

8.  And that’s it.  I’m working on some posts for Stuffy to answer her questions.  It’s taking a while, but I promise they’re coming.  As for the other blog – there may be 2 other blogs.  One which will be about my going solo – the other to be more of a marketing tool for clients.  I’ll keep you all updated.

 

9.  AND.  THE.  BEST.  THING.  THE BLACKBERRY STORM COMES OUT NEXT THURSDAY!!!  Guess who’ll be in line!!!!!!!! I’m psyched!!!

Little Update With Something Big… November 9, 2008

1. My second CLE was FAR better. I believe there were sandwiches or something of the sort available but I figured it out too late. There was some good coffee though. The setting was so much more comfortable than the other…stadium seating with cushy chairs. And, I learned… a lot. It seemed to be better suited to what I had been looking for anyway. I am glad that I went.

 

2. I did something the other night… something kind of big… Deleted Unofficial from my phone. Yup! I know. Before I get into, let’s just take a few moments to revel in the bigness of that.

 

3. One of my new favorite sites is Twitter. I was twittering from my cell phone under the impression that I had unlimited text messages. Guess what? I don’t… well, didn’t. My bill was almost $200 more than normal!!! I called Customer Care and they took care of me. They put me on unlimited texting AND took away all the extra charges. So nice!

 

4. Ok – Unofficial… So, we spoke on the phone and yet again he manage to fill up his entire schedule for the weekend and whatever with every one and any one BUT me! Again. And, honestly, I’m sick of getting off the phone with him upset and on the verge of tears. I always leave those conversations feeling unimportant, regardless of the fact that he has repeatedly said that I am important to him. Sadly, the whole “actions speak louder than words” quote is fitting here. There’s not much else to say. I was going out with friends for a fundraiser and didn’t want to be drunk dialing and decided that was that. I’ve had enough. So, I took him out. That. Is. That.

Thoughts During My First CLE November 5, 2008

*These are legitimately the thoughts I wrote down during my first CLE. I make no apologies as I was bored out of my head.*

 

1. So here I am, sitting in my first CLE, waiting for it to start. There’s an interesting group here. Some are older attorneys, a good amount look newish or students. They have coffee, tea, soda and water along with snacks. AND, they are having pizza delivered halfway through. The best part: mini-moos for the coffee!! I HATE dry creamers.

 

2. Within the 1st 10 minutes I’m slightly unengaged already. The first speaker is going straight from the packet – yes, that’s what we get in this CLE a packet. It’s a binder with handouts in it and a small binder at that. I do not do well when there’s a paper in front of me and the speaker is practically going word for word from it. I tune out and want to sleep.

 

3. One of the speakers keeps falling asleep – it’s pretty great.

 

4. I’m not at all interested right now – so bad. (about 30 minutes in) I almost feel like I know most of this already from law school. It doesn’t seem to be giving me any of the practical skills I wanted to learn.

 

5. Guy who was falling asleep just interrupted and gave some sort of diatribe about something I don’t fully get.. forget fully… I don’t get it at all.

 

6. Sleepy guy likes to keep interrupting and throwing in his thoughts every two minutes. It’s funny watching the other speakers react.

 

7. On a side note, I was “cleared” for the Volunteer Lawyers Project. I’m not exactly sure what this means but I’ll keep you updated.

 

8. Dude – I forgot how confusing business tax can be. It makes my head hurt. I’ve DEFINITELY been out of it for a while. And, on that point, maybe I should have paid attention to the MBA designating this CLE as “intermediate.” No wonder I’m lost now.

 

9. Pizza + Nacho Doritos @CLE = YUM!

 

10. I have yet to speak with anyone here. May not be a good group to network with as they all have those “good” questions and I have the “uuuuuuh… what?” look on my face.

 

11. Another random: I can’t wait to get the Blackberry Storm. Then people will stop looking at my silly ugly phone with contempt. I’ll have the new professional toy!

 

12. Unofficial and I have been texting tonight. I texted to him that I’m in town if he was around. He said he has his lil bro from bb/bs tonite. I said: “Ok just throwing it out there.” Him: “Wish I could catch it…” Me: “You need a new glove.” Him: “I always love the smell and feel of breaking in a new glove.” Me: ” Yeah the tough part is letting go of the old one.” And that’s where it stopped… haha. Nice.

 

13. Sleepy guy’s turn to present. I wish you could see his beard. I believe he is getting ready to play Santa somewhere downtown.

 

14. Of course, the weird one has the most complicated topic. And my eyes are glazing over…

 

15. Dear God, I hope that the one tomorrow is better. If not, I will not be able to take on Hot Fireman as a client and help him organize a business.

 

16. I haven’t felt so out of my league in a class since my first tax law class. CRAP!

 

17. We have 45 minutes left. I am tempted to just leave. So. Over. My. Head.

 

18. I sat too close to the front. Had I been out back I could at least twitter… but no…

 

19. Sleepy guy keeps looking at me as he speaks. I think I’m his “person” in the crowd. Argh. Seriously, it’s like he’s starting at me. Never sitting in the front again.

 

20. Slowly losing my will to live. 25 minutes left. Very difficult to remain attentive and not take a nap at this point. One would think that coffee I had at the beginning would keep me up – NOPE. Oh god… now he’s rambling about an economics class he took when younger and I cannot follow the connection to what he’s talking about in general… argh.

 

21. Over. Done. Thank. God. And. Obama.

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! November 4, 2008

HE DID IT!!!!!!!! OBAMA WON!!!!!!! My lord… this is such a historical moment!! Finally, the Dems are back in control. Finally, a black president. Finally, we’re moving forward…

Election Night November 4, 2008

So, I’ll get to Stuffy Smiles’ questions tomorrow. I didn’t realize that I would be so wrapped up in the election results coming out. This is fantastic. I am in awe as I watch these projections. I was out of work super early tonight (6:30). I’ve been watching the projections and results all night. And now, I’m in my bedroom on my lovely fluffy bed with sleepy-time tea and almond cookies awaiting the next 80-something electoral vote projections. I’m so content!! (p.s. I re-read my entry from last night and man was I tired!! Mistakes everywhere!)

Legal Beagle, ELECTION!!, Dessert, Car Reg, Short week November 4, 2008

1. Boston Legal was hilarious tonight. I like the this election has made its way into our weekly shows.

 

2. I’m VERY excited for the election tomorrow. I really REALLY am. It must be said, though, that I am not a very political person. I just… I feel so different about this election. I feel like there is something huge in the making and I’m so happy that I will be a part of it.

 

3. Is it weird that I had dessert before salad tonight?

 

4. Lucky for me, I FINALLY renewed my car’s registration today. I’m not going to lie, I was worried that I would get there and yet AGAIN not be able to renew.

 

5. This week is a short one for me at the restaurant. I had a double tomorrow. And I’m trying to get someone to take my Thurs night shift, so I won’t be at work again until Saturday night. Wednesday and Thursday there are CLEs I want to take, both in forming a business entity. One is Mass Bar and the other is MCLE. Also this week: I will be going to the local bar association’s meeting for the young lawyers’ division. And, there is an IOLTA training Thursday morning I want to go to so that I can learn how not to F things up. There’s also a Women’s Bar social thing as well. Holy fun!!

 

6. OK, so let’s interact… me and you readers. Ask me some random questions either about me, my life and past whatever. That will be what my next entry is about.

Update On My Last Post November 1, 2008

1. I have been so busy trying to get this whole being a solo lawyer thing going and working on my current case AND waitressing. So, for my absence, I’m sorry.

 

2. In fact, so busy and so ummm preoccupied that I forgot I had to renew my car registration. Yeah… It wouldn’t automatically renew because of a stupid outstanding parking ticket from Unofficial’s town. So, I remember yesterday (the last day to renew of course) and go to pay the parking ticket in person because that’s the only way it can be done. The “Traffic Division” apparently closes at NOON on Fridays!! What does this mean? It means I can’t pay the ticket, thereby blocking my ability to renew my registration and thus rendering my car useless for 3 days. I could push it and drive and pray that I won’t get pulled over, fined $100 and have my car towed (another like $150 to get it back I’m sure)… but really, who wants to gamble like that? This all means that I have no car to get to work or to take care of my renewal. I have someone picking me up for work in a bit and then I have to beg people at work to drive me home. I have nothing tomorrow, so not a big deal. But Monday I need to borrow someone’s car so I can do everything to renew the registration. ARGH. So frustrating.

 

3. Last Wednesday I opened an IOLTA and Business Accounts: “Snarky Runner, Esq.” Fun!! The problem, though, is that I have yet to receive any checks from the bank and I need to write out one or two to the court for filing fees. I guess I’ll have to do it from my own account and then reimburse. It’s just annoying.

 

4. Monday, after I renew my registration, I will be filing all of the court paperwork. Yay!

 

5. I have not started the other blog, but I will soon. I’ll keep you all updated.

 

6. Unofficial and I are not good. In fact, I’m pretty sure we’re done (stop the eye rolling and sighs). I’m not making good decisions regarding him and it’s turning me into a crazy person. I don’t want to rehash my insanity but I have to walk away. When he’s ready to give me what I want and need, then we can try again. I need to focus on everything else right now and not him.

 

7. I attended a Young Lawyers social thing for the local bar association. It was nice. The people were very kind and we all chatted a while. We went to this comedy improv place and it was hilarious. I think I made some new lawyer friends. Haha.

 

8. There’s really nothing much else going on. I will post a more fun and snarky entry later tonight when I get home from work.