Hypoglycemia, WTF, Princeton, Grey’s and Debate September 26, 2008

1. I am hypoglycemic. No, not diabetic. The exact opposite. My blood sugar will randomly just drop and, all of a sudden, I am woozy, jittery, clammy, and pale. If left unchecked I pass out. This doesn’t happen all the time. Usually, I can catch it before the symptoms get too far. This past Saturday I almost passed out at work. It was not good. I haven’t done much research on this whole hypoglycemia thing since I was in high school (when I was diagnosed). I just read on WebMD about it. Apparently, one should not drink a lot when hypoglycemic. Good to know…

 

2. Care Bear sent me an email with a link to a newspaper in PA. The lead story is about the father of classmates of ours. He’s a pretty well known attorney down there. Apparently he and his son (one of our classmates) have been indicted with a few different federal charges. For what, you ask? Faking the will of the father’s brother who passed a year or so ago. WHAT!? This is some serious stuff!! WTF.

 

3. There is someone up here who I went to law school with. I didn’t realize he lived up here until recently. We’ll call him Princeton. Princeton was a 3L when I was a 1L. He is friends with Meat Head in PA who I was “involved with” during my first year. Anyway, Princeton requested a connection to me on LinkedIn and then we started emailing. We have since begun texting. And now, we’re trying to plan on meeting up for lunch or a drink. He’s an in-house counsel for an investment company but knows litigators. So… we’ll see… there are multiple good things that can come out of this: 1) He forwards my resume onto his friends; 2) He reports back to Meat Head that I looked amazing; and 3) I have a friend from law school to hang out with. This all makes me happy.

 

4. Grey’s started last night. I’m in love. It was really good and made me all warm and fuzzy. Yay! Anyone else a big fan?

 

5. So I have my DVR set to record the debate tonight. For the first time ever I’m really excited to watch a political debate. It should be interesting. I’m glad McCain didn’t back out. Who else is excited to watch this?

Babies, TV, Bitch, Knee Pain and Unofficial September 22, 2008

1. Today my lovely friend from college who is married and preggers found out what she’s having… a boy!!! Yay!! I would be thrilled either way, of course. She’s happy and I’m so excited for them!!

 

2. Yesterday I got an interesting call from my father. He has, apparently, gone out and gotten himself a puppy!!! It’s a little boy beagle and he’s adorable. I spoiled him rotten today when I visited. He’s just so frickin’ cute. SO CUTE. And LOVABLE. I want a puppy now…

 

3. While down to visit the newest member of the family I *finally* got a TV for my bedroom. YAY!! I’ve hooked it up to the DVR and now, I’m set for the fall season. I will admit, I have a small addiction to the ABC lineup.

 

4. So, Audrey Hepburn called me at 9:30 this morning saying she needed to talk to me about something regarding work. She sounded very serious. It seems as though multiple co-workers of mine have complained about my bitchiness over the last week or so. Part of me wants to laugh. The other wants to cry. I am very cognizant of how miserable I’ve been lately. I’m just not sure what to do to change that. Short of getting a new job, what can I do to stop hating where I’m at currently? Suggestions?

 

5. I finally went to the gym that I joined a month ago. My true intentions were to tan but I refuse to go to the gym JUST to tan. So, I decided to cycle for half an hour and read the Boston Bar Journal I had just received. Today my knee is sore. Like behind the knee in the ligament area. This required me to call Athletic Trainer. If it still hurts on Wednesday, I’m going to have him look at it before I go to the Sox game. I haven’t seen him in months, since I moved basically. Should be interesting…

 

6. Unofficial and I chatted for a bit tonight. He’s pretty miserable with life too. If we have to be miserable, why can’t we be miserable together? hahaha…

Friends’ Date Number 2 September 20, 2008

1. I woke up at like noonish today. I had a text from Unofficial responding to one I sent last night about lunch today. He was asking if I could meet him near his office. Immediately (once awake) I responded and said I’d be there with in the hour (of course not alluding to having slept this late).

 

2. Once I got to his office, I was immediately annoyed because he didn’t answer my calls for like 10 minutes. He had ample warning as to when I’d get there. Once I saw him though… it was all fantastic.. I’m such a push over.

 

3. Lunch was good. We chatted. it was comfortable and nice. I got mad because he went to talk on his phone even though he had given us a strict time limit due to a conference call. Obv I got over it quickly but I was annoyed. He hates work right now. He is pretty sure they will go under by Nov and that he “needs to disappear and go somewhere warm for a while. Make a big change.” And then I got mad because WHY would I be OK with him running away. He realized what he’d said and why I was upset (mostly because after he said “you’ll be so busy…..,” I said “Shut up. Why don’t you realize just how important you are to me!?!?” Etc. He promised not to move away just to go on vacay. ugggggh.

 

4. I miss him. A lot.

 

5. Oh. And my car got towed. During lunch. Swear. We were walking back to where I parked. He was talking about how people get towed etc. And then my car wasn’t there. Fucking christ. I’m so poor right now. $124 later I get my car and I cry. Unofficial didn’t pay because he had that conference call (which I knew about) and couldn’t come with me. Had he come with, I’m sure he would have stopped, gotten cash and paid. He offered to pay for my cab but I refused. I’m just so mad that this even happened. It totally made a negative ending. Argh.

 

6. I love him. And just want to be with him. Argh.

Writing, Money Suckers, Twitter, Work and Unofficial September 17, 2008

1. I found my appellate brief today. I’m happy because I feel like this is something much easier to revise and use as a writing sample than anything else I have in hard copy. I’m already half way through re-typing and light revisions. Yay!

 

2. Also done today: sent in my bar registration and $165. Fuckers. Why did I pay $815 to take the exam? Seriously… what was that money for? Shouldn’t your first year in the bar be “free” then? Bastards.

 

3. Joined twitter the other day under my real name. It’s kind of fun. I like it, especially at work.

 

4. Speaking of work, I’m not happy these days. At. All. I think I’m seriously hitting my limit. Let’s hope that I can find something ASAP. I’m waiting on some feedback regarding my resume and cover letter from RE and hopefully this writing sample turns out well enough that someone will hire me… like by next week. What? It can happen…..

 

5. I called Unofficial at 3:45 a.m. over the weekend. He called me at 9 a.m. to make fun of me. How sweet of him… at least we can joke. In another conversation he said that it looks like something big is about to happen at the company. FINALLY. Then maybe he can chill out and just love me. Again… it can happen….

Thoughts From My Run and After It September 10, 2008

1. I went for a 30 minute run today. I’m *trying* to run a couple times a week. Anyway… so I went running today and while running I was thinking about my form and how I must look to other people. I believe I probably look like a T-Rex. I mean, I’m not tall really but I feel like the way my arms and hands are while running it looks like stub arms with way too relaxed hands. So… yeah… if someone gave me a nickname while running it may be T-Rex… or at least in my strange outlook.

 

2. When I go for a run, I come home and within a few minutes need to shower. I don’t like to sit around in my sweatiness. So, I’ll take a cool shower quick. Inevitably, I need to pee when I get out of the shower. And then I realize just how hot my body is on the inside because my pee is like boiling. Is that normal?

 

3. I made a delicious lunch after my run: a 2 egg omelet with a little bit of shredded cheddar, spinach, red and green pepper and onion and a teeny tiny bit of rosemary. And a piece of 12-grain toast and a banana. It was quite tasty. I’m still hungry though. Oh well…

 

4. My calves hurt already and I need to go to work right now. I could really use a leg massage afterwards. Does anyone want to help me in that area?

 

Writing Sample, Trucker, Republico, School Ties, Damn it September 10, 2008

1. I need a writing sample. There’s a job posting that looks interesting and that I might be good for but it requires a writing sample. Now, I’m aware that I sound like an idiot here, but… what the hell kind of writing sample do they want? I wrote some papers in law school but those were all really long and I highly doubt that’s what they want. I kind of wish I could just use someone else’s. I know that’s wrong. BUT I need job. Stat. And I’m a pretty good (I think) writer when I have to be. So… yeah… would that be terribly wrong of me? (OK, I know the answer is yes… but I NEED some help!!!)

 

2. When I wake up in the morning, I sound like a 73 year old truck driver. I called one of my best friends from high school because he wanted an update on my *ahem* training for the marathon next month. When I called he asked if I had lost my voice. No, I just woke up…

 

3. One of my girlfriends is a staunch Republican. I may name her Republico on here because she’s going to come up quite a bit over the next couple months I feel (and with her wedding next summer). Anywho… she sent an email that had a picture of Sarah Palin on her motorcycle and then Barack on his regular bike. First of all, one should compare like things. So, instead of Barack, Biden should have been the one compared to Palin. Second, I had to respond so I sent her this link to an article about Sarah Palin. (Mind you, I sent a mass email to all of our girlfriends) She responded in kind by picking apart the article and making specific arguments to lines in the article. It was hilarious. She’s so intense. I love it. We could all see her getting herself in a tizzy. Haha… I love email games.

 

4. Last fall I felt strange not being in school. The same is true right now. I feel like I should be sitting in a classroom somewhere learning something. I might order some older CLE’s and do those at home. AND, I think I should get to at least one a month for the hell of it. They may be soul sucking, but I need to feel like I’m adding to my legal knowledge and not just by reading Above The Law each day.

 

5. See, I can get through a whole post without mentioning Unofficial…. Sh*t! I take it back…

The First Friends Date With Unofficial September 9, 2008

Tonight was our first get together as friends. I made sure I looked fantastic, just to kind of stick it to him a little. I mean… come on… you’d all do the same thing. The night was good and annoying and sad. He was caught up with work a lot… he’d get a phone call or email or something that he HAD to do right then. This whole having one really crazy job and then a consulting gig on the side that is just as crazy is not cool. I wanted to kick him at times, but then I knew it was really not his fault because things were falling apart for this project that he is on for tomorrow. Anywho… We had dinner and chatted. It was comfortable yet I was distanced. I did it on purpose. I had to. There were moments when he would walk by and put his hands on my shoulders or my waist like he used to… and I wanted to melt away completely. I was slightly snarky (strange) and he called me out on it saying I was mad. I explained that I’m not mad at all just slightly snarky because that’s how I get but I wasn’t being horrible by any means. Just silly little jabs that I laughed off immediately after saying them. He wouldn’t stop looking at me like that. I called him out on that. He said I was trying to get even by looking good… I said if I wanted revenge I’d sleep with one of his friends (kidding of course). The end of the night was so profoundly sad and sweet all at the same time. We started talking about things and he in no uncertain terms said that he thinks he has a couple more months of the craziness and then things will settle and he wants to really try with me. He hasn’t been good without me recently, making silly decisions and just holing up in work. I explained to him that the hardest thing for me is knowing he wants to move forward and not seeing it happen. He walked me to my car at the end, we kissed on the lips quick, and then just hugged for what felt like forever. He didn’t want to let go and neither did I. I pulled away first though. It was necessary. I knew tonight might be hard. I knew we’d be attracted to each other and that we’d have a good time and just want to be normal and everything. I guess, I just thought maybe I had evolved past the issues of “us.” Clearly I was wrong. If I have ever doubted before, I can clearly say I do not doubt it right now… I love this man with all my heart. I’m so fucked.

Hair, Guerrilla Tactics, Dog Run, Tom Brady and Unofficial (again) September 8, 2008

1. So I dyed my hair again… I was scared of it last night. Today I’m feeling it a bit more. I have yet to put on makeup or style it, so then I’ll give a final decision. I kind of can’t wait for Unofficial to see it. It’s a bit of a shock.

 

2. I’ve decided to re-read Guerilla Tactics For Getting The Legal Job of Your Dreams. I read it I think during my 1st year of law school. Or maybe after my first summer in between. Some of the info doesn’t apply seeing as I’m out of law school already, but some of it’s not bad. I’m just trying to use anything to my advantage right now… so, if that means re-reading this book, then that’s what I’m going to do.

 

3. I took Fake Big Sis’s dog for a run today. We went 3 miles. At about the half way mark I brought him down to the water and let him go in for a bit. He’s so cute but it’s definitely a bit difficult to run with him. He wants to sniff everything and play with the leash or run too fast. We got into a bit of a groove at one point though. I think I might like to run with him more often. It was pretty fun.

 

4. Today is a sad day for all Patriots fans. Tom Brady will be out for the entire 2008 season because of his knee injury. Although, this could mean we get to see him in regular clothes more often, which is pretty f’in hot.

 

5. Unofficial just called. I’m meeting him at like 8. We’re just going to grill out. I’m planning on wearing a navy shirt dress and navy heels. And of course, my new hair. This should be interesting…

Finances, Unofficial, Sex, Me As Vice President? September 7, 2008

1. The financial situation isn’t much better at the moment. I made some money over the weekend so I can make at least one car payment tomorrow in cash. I’m just real worried that I’m tanking here. I’ve considered getting rid of the jeep and downsizing but who’s going to buy a jeep with this economy and with gas prices the way they are? I’ll never get enough for it to cover the loan.

 

2. Unofficial and I spoke about this very situation and his answer was for me to get a new job. Uh… duh. Haha. Speaking of that conversation… It was good. We just talked for a bit about life and then made plans for tomorrow night. We’ll see if the plans actually happen… haha. BUT it will be the first time I’ve seen him in almost 5 weeks. Part of me is worried that my new healthy outlook on our situation will suddenly change when I see him and I’ll want things to be back. I’m mostly just hoping that it’s comfortable and fun and that I don’t want to sleep with him.

 

3. But… I WILL want to sleep with him…. argh.

 

4. I feel very productive today. I did my old-woman-coupon-clipping, then went over and spent some time with Fake Big Sis’s dog and did my laundry, THEN went food shopping, THEN cleaned, THEN dyed my hair (I now need a tan), AND THEN cooked. I’m such a big girl. My plan for tomorrow is to wake up early-ish, eat something, go running, do something towards getting a new job, eat, finish cleaning, gym and tan, then meet up with Unofficial.

 

5. At work the other day I overheard two men talking about Sarah Palin. They were saying she’s like a sexy librarian or teacher with those glasses. Can you imagine how many women are trying to get the same glasses? I wear some that people make the same comment about… maybe I should be VP. What do you think? Haha

Good Morning… Er… Afternoon! September 5, 2008

1. After the post last night, I hung around the restaurant a bit as usual. I got the opportunity to have a conversation with Work Crush’s Brother. He’s ridiculously well spoken and articulate and funny. I learned that he wants to write… comedy. How awesome?! He’s done stand up a couple times and I guess plans on doing it some more. I think I heart him. I also found out, however, that he’s 22!!! Holy Lord. And… he has a gf of over a year. So that’s out. BUT he’s fun to chat with and work with, and to harass his brother with… so that’s good!

 

2. Fake Big Sis is getting a season ticket package for the Bruins! I think it’s one of the smaller packages, but STILL! I love me some hockey… men. The game’s alright too. And, of course, she wants me to go along with her! Yay!

 

3. Just got the call from the temp agency. The case has settled… so no doc review project for me.

 

4. I am drowning financially. I’m behind on car payments and insurance. I haven’t paid rent yet. I’m pretty sure the gas company is going to throw the kill switch one of these weeks if I don’t pay them. I’m working as much as I physically can and I cannot make things work. I know it’s partially because the summer was so bad… but I need things to be a shit ton better in the next week or things are not going to work out and I’m going to be screwed. Argh!