I just received this text in regards to sending a picture of my ummm… chest. Mind you… I didn’t ACTUALLY send the picture… it was requested that I do (jokingly) and then followed by this text:
“Okay, but seriously. don’t do it because I have a commandment. Thou shalt not covet thy straight friends naughty pillows.”
Listen to this. Seriously, though… listen to the entire thing. It’s amazing!
1. Unofficial’s job is getting more and more stressful as the company runs out of money. He is very much afraid of losing his job and what he’ll do after. Friday, to be the really cute quasi-girlfriend that I am, I met up with him before he went to work. I brought him cupcakes and a nice card. He said “You woke up this early to drive here and bring me cupcakes?” My response “I just wanted to start your day off with a smile.” I think he’s smitten… 
2. There was a program for newly admitted attorneys sponsored by the local bar association on Friday. I went hoping to be able to network. I’m noticing that I find myself very timid and overwhelmed at these events. I see people in groups and I’m not sure how to break in. Everyone seems to know everyone else (obv from going to school in the area) and I’m an outsider. I’ve never been one who anybody would consider “timid,” so this is weird. Any advice?
3. Also, on Friday, one of my best friends from college (who I NEVER see) came to my place and we had a taco/margarita night. Nothing crazy, just a couple margaritas and some tacos. I forgot how much I love tacos AND hanging out with her. I need to name her for here. Wait. I’ve got it. Mrs. Gump. She’ll understand the reference… ahahahhaha. Anyway, we had a great time. It was good to catch up, I miss her a ton. We’ve had a weird friendship as much of it has been solely via internet/phone because of distance. BUT since we live near each other again, we’re trying… I was just happy to be hanging out with her.
4. Saturday was interesting. I ended up hanging out with Unofficial and his best friend from out of town. We had brunch, then reconvened at a bar around 5:30 pm. Some of his other friends showed up and we had a great time. The problem? Me starting to drink in the early afternoon and trying to keep up with the boys all night. Oh Jesus. Unofficial was great, he was very attentive and cute with me. The guys seemed to like me, so that’s good too. However, I can’t remember the last couple hours of being awake. Unofficial says one bar shut me off, so I was pissed. I asked if I was mortifying and he said “No. You were funny.” Ok, funny I can handle. I woke up at his place yesterday morning and felt pretty OK. No headache. No queasiness. Just tired. I think I have a problem. Haha.
1. My swearing in last Monday was amazing. I wore what I refer to as my FBI suit (it’s a navy pants suit with a crisp white shirt) and was very close to the stage. There was a lot of anticipation because, much like everything else done in MA, they made us wait until all of the guests and family members were seated and then allowed us entry into the building. The ceremony was funny yet stoic at times. A lot of good things were said and it was great to see my father and his girlfriend looking on. My father presented me with my license (you may have 1 person present you w/ your license if you wish) and he was so proud. I loved it.
2. The first thing I did after seeing my father off was order business cards from one of those office supply stores. You know, the one with that stupid button? Anyway… I order the cards and pick them up. They are the cheapest things ever. I’m slightly annoyed. They cut some of them wrong so there’s white where there should be color or the borders don’t match up. I’m going to have to take the F’d up ones back and demand restitution. Yup. Restitution.
3. Dinner was fantastic! I borrowed a very cute dress from Fake Big Sis. She and Irish Teacher came to my place for a glass of champagne before we headed off. When we got there, Unofficial was just ordering a drink at the bar and my friend from high school and his girlfriend were just finishing up drinks. We sat at this fun half booth half chairs round table. Of course, I was next to Unofficial. Everyone got along soooo well. I was seriously the happiest I think I’ve been in a long time. Unofficial was very attentive to me and sweet and he got high reviews from everyone.
4. Unofficial came back to my place that night and I turned into quite the ass. I think I’m getting scared. Things are going really well and I feel myself falling. I feel like he’s more there w/ me than ever but there are moments where I freak myself out and wonder what will happen if he’s not and never is. I apologized for my behavior and we are fine. At least he is understanding… 
I’m alive… and I will update soon. I promise. Quickly, all is well. I’ve just been real busy/tired. It’s been a long but good week. Again… I’ll give a real update soon. You can hold me to it!
1. Tomorrow is my swearing in ceremony!!! By 12 pm I will officially be a licensed attorney in the Commonwealth of Massachusetts!!! 
2. Speaking of tomorrow… I’m still working out the details for my celebration dinner. Unofficial will absolutely be there, as will Irish Teacher. my guy friend from high school (who I need to give a name for on here) and his girlfriend (needs a name too) will be in attendance. Finally, it’s possible that one of my very good friends from college and her fiancee (both in need of names as well) will be there. Fake Big Sis will be showing up for a cocktail (or two… or three), she claims that she won’t partake in dinner… we’ll see. Other people may meet up with us throughout the night… who knows. The problem? I have NO IDEA where we’re going. I’m trying to pick a place that I like, has a diverse menu and isn’t too expensive. UGH!! Hey you Bostonites: Any suggestions?
3. Unofficial and I are having a REALLY good week. I don’t want to jinx it but we are. Yesterday he was pretty insistent on getting to see me. It wasn’t in a needy way or anything, but he brought it up randomly and continued throughout both of our “work-shifts” until it happened. Haha. I got out of the restaurant pretty early so I came home, showered, went to his place and we got takeout sushi. He was really beat from a tough week at work and with this event he was working at, so he was kind of out of it. What was nice though, was that he still wanted me there with him. He could have easily just gone to bed but didn’t. Today he said that I should come by the event. When I was about to, I texted him and asked if I could bring he and his little brother (big-bro/big-sis) anything. They requested lunch, which was good because I was starving too. So, I brought them lunch and sat and ate with them. We then wandered around the event for a while.
4. My lovely non-boyfriend was very sweet today. As I was leaving, he said he would be thinking about me during the ceremony and that he’d see me tomorrow night. After I left the event he texted me “Thank you so much for coming by with lunch and beautiful smiles.” Later, I was having issues deciding on where dinner should be tomorrow night, and he texted me 3 choices. I asked about a couple of other places and said something about how I don’t want people to feel forced to spend a ton of money etc. His response to me: “It’s your day. Go where you want don’t worry about location or money.” He does sometimes make me swoon.
5. Fake Big Sis lent me a couple of dresses so that I can choose which one I want to wear tomorrow night. I’m bored with mine and want to look especially stunning. They’re all on the shorter side… yay legs!!
1. Yesterday I worked a double and it was insane. The day shift was kind of lame with only a few tables. One of my favorite regulars (who is helping me to network!!) came in and that was fun. At around 4, things took a turn. It was just me and the entire patio filled up (a party of 15, a party of 6, a couple 2 tops and a 4) AND I had a table of 5 and a few smaller tables inside!! HOLY CRAP! I was running my ass off until 10 pm when it started to slow. Needless to say, it was a great night. I loved it.
2. I have tonight off. Do you think Unofficial has tried to make plans?
3. This very second, I’m hungry. REALLY HUNGRY. I am also lazy. VERY LAZY. I am on the couch and still haven’t done a damned thing worth anything today. I can’t imagine anything in my fridge/freezer/pantry that I want right now. This means I would have to get myself moving and go to the store… but I’m lazy (as mentioned already). My choices are limited now… I went on PeaPod but they won’t deliver until tomorrow which does not help me at the moment. This is quite a predicament that I’m in…
4. I was gross last night and had a cigarette. It’s a rarity and only happens when I drink. I didn’t even have a craving but the two people I was with were both smoking so I wanted to as well. DUMB. I HATE waking up the day after I have a cigarette. AND I can’t run today that means, for the obvious reasons. Why do I do stupid stuff like that?
5. What should I do on my night off?
1. At work we have this rule: you can buy yourself 1 drink at the end of the night IF the closing manager says it’s OK and you change your shirt. You may not have more than 1. Last night, RockStar Manager (RS) was closing. The Celtics game was underway, and I had finished my 1. I asked her if she would mind if I had another drink she said “Just don’t do anything weird.” HA!!
2. Also overheard last night coming from the mouth of a slightly drunk female guest at the bar within the last few minutes of the game: “I’m too short to sit at a moment like this!”
3. I was thinking about how Monday is my swearing in (!!!!!) and the tentative plans I have with a newer friend of mine. She dates a good friend of mine from high school and she is open to drinking on weekdays… these two things bonded us immediately. So, anyway, I was thinking about these plans and for a second I thought of putting them on hold and doing something with Unofficial (mind you, we hadn’t discussed doing anything, I was just thinking about what my ideal plan for the night would be). Then it hit me… NO… I would LOVE to see him that night, but I’m not going to change around my plans for him. If he wants to meet us out, that would be fantastic, and if not then that’s OK too.
4. Jennie made a comment on my last post about my sounding good. I’m glad and it made me smile. For some reason, the stuff with Unofficial and my job search all seem a bit more manageable. I don’t feel overwhelmed or overly emotional. Inexplicably, I feel calm and at ease.
1. The interview went well yesterday… I guess… It was more like meeting with a Career Counselor. I mean, she asked me about my resume and the experiences on there. She questioned me about what fields I want to go into. And then, she started asking me about my job search and how it’s going. After I tell her, she basically goes into Career Counselor mode telling me the steps I should be taking and where I should be looking. It was strange. I forgot that these agencies need to stack up their files with potential temp employees so that they have a pool they can draw from when a project comes along. I guess I am now in that pool. I have to keep reminding myself that it was good practice for future interviews.
2. I took a cab into town for the interview because I did not want to be late. I am far from skilled at the T, and I know that driving in would be a bad idea. After the interview, I made the decision that I would wander around and eventually use the T to get home. I went by the water and watched boats. Then I texted Unofficial to see if he would want to come in and meet me for lunch. And he did…
3. Lunch was great. It was good to see him and talk about my interview etc. I hadn’t spoken to him all weekend or on his birthday. I was still pretty mad at him but it all went away when I saw him. He has never seen me in my “lawyer garb” so this was a first. I’m pretty sure he loved it. We had a good time and I left feeling like things were on the upswing.
4. Unofficial has definitely been saying some things that I find interesting. He’s back to calling me “Baby” and being cutesy with me. During lunch he asked if I wanted to send him my resume so he could pass it along. I asked if he was comfortable with that and he was. Then he said “I’m going to call you a ‘friend’ in emails to these people. I don’t want you to take it in a bad way or Uh… umm… yeah, I just want you take it in a good way and uh…” I laughed because he was having a hard time actually speaking, it was humorous. And then I said “What else would you call me at this point?” He just gave me a look…
5. Celtics won the championship last night!! I watched it at work and then Unofficial came over to my place. When we were on the phone while each driving to my home, he said he was on a certain street. As we were chatting when we got here, I asked why he had been on that road (he had just told me he watched the game at home). He said he had dropped off a friend and she lives on a certain road. I laughed and said “Ha… friend… yeah…” and gave him a snarky look (more funny snarky than mean snarky). He then went into overdrive telling me that she is just a friend and that he’s allowed to have friends. He wasn’t mad just insistent. I kept laughing. And then I told him that of course he can have female friends, I have male friends. I have no problem with that. My reaction was based on the fact that he uses the word “friend” to both mean someone who is a platonic friend and someone with whom he is involved. He tried to deny this but gave in. And then he said she is just a platonic friend. I said OK and then we moved on. His insistence took me back. I’m not sure why he felt the need to make the point…
6. I’m optimistic about things today… not like floating-on-air-giggly-16 year-old-type optimism… more like real life I-know-things-might-fail-but-I’m-preferring-to-look-at-the-positives-type optimism.
1. I’m convinced that I should try to get on Chelsea Handler’s Roundtable. What do you all think? Anyone have a video camera I can borrow? Screw being a lawyer…
2. Today is Unofficial’s birthday. At about 12:15 a.m. I texted him “Happy Birthday!” He responded with “Thanks Baby” There has been no other communication today. I hate having to do this on his birthday of all days, but I am not his girlfriend and he has not put in the effort this weekend with me not communicating with him. So… that’s that. I’m slightly sad.
3. I have 2 interviews this week. Both are with legal staffing agencies or temp agencies. They both have these applications they want you to fill out and they ask what you want to be paid. I put $30/hr… I wasn’t sure what to put so I guessed. I figure, if I won’t be waitressing and getting cash that $30/hr would make up for that. Right?
4. I finally get to use that beautiful bag that Unofficial gave me for my birthday. Ironic, huh? I’m just really hoping for some good luck tomorrow. It’s been a long while since I interviewed for a legal position. I think those of you in Boston who have worked for some of these places should leave comments, though… so I know what I’m getting myself into!!
