Waiting Game April 23, 2008

I feel like I’m doing a lot of waiting lately. Waiting to move to a new place (Sunday!!! yay!!). Waiting for Unofficial to get his head out of his ass… err… be ready. But, most importantly, waiting for my bar results. This. F’ing. Sucks. I was all fine with the wait until this week. I’ve convinced myself that the results will come out VERY soon.

 

Because of my ability to lie to myself, I’m now in deep anxiety mode. I was scheduled for a double at work today. It’s BEAUTIFUL outside, so we weren’t too busy. I scooted out as quickly as possible and bee-lined it home. I NEEDED to check the mail. Now, mind you, I’m still in Plymouth so it’s a good 30 minute drive between the apartment and work. (Come Sunday, only 15 minutes! Yay!) Regardless, I made the drive just to check my mail.

 

I am now hating the United States Postal Service. Daily, I am disappointed. Yesterday, it was a pamphlet from some local community college (because I definitely need more school right?!). Today, it was a flier from Bed Bath & Beyond. Granted, that $5 coupon on the last page may come in handy due to this move, but seriously……. GIVE. ME. MY. RESULTS. NOW!!!

 

The anxiety, I think, is worse than right before the exam. Honestly. I was pretty crazy right before the exam, too. This is worrisome for me because if I manage to get “crazier” I think it may drive away everyone in my life. Haha. I’m already over-reacting to nothing (literally, nothing) in regards to Unofficial. He and I are *very* good right now. And, I am being crazy because he has become “linked” to someone on that site where you “link” with others and I think it’s someone else he’s dating. So, I googled her and found her facebook… etc etc. Now, nothing has changed with he and I. I just now have a face for the name… which should make me feel a little better because if I’m being catty (and of course I am) I would say that I’m prettier and a better all around package. But, that’s only if I’m being catty… I feel confident with he and I, but this over-riding anxiety makes me insane. I’m trying to be calm, cool and collected like the MSN horoscopes told me to be… hahaha

 

I’ll write about Marathon Monday later. I just needed to vent. There’s been some serious action on this blog the last few days. Lots of visitors and some who are even searching for “bar results snarky runner” and the like. Very cool. You know, you can leave comments too! hahaha.