Story Time and Some Other Nonsense April 9, 2008

1. I never realized, until it was brought to my attention last night, that I tend to only write about the current events in my life. While speaking with a friend who reads this, I told a few stories which I had not shared on here. After each story the response was: “THAT’S something you should blog about.” So, with that encouragement…

 

 

2. My “dating” record is not quite the best. I’ve made some really… erhm… funny…choices. I am in no way shy or subordinate and I tend to be a tad aggressive when there’s someone I want. These are the reasons my friends have been, to say the least, shocked by my slightly different approach with Unofficial. This was not, of course, the approach used to get Athletic Trainer.

 

AT worked at the good ‘ole State U for many years prior to my attendance. When I arrived, he was in the midst of an on -again-off-again relationship that in total lasted a decade. I knew of him but never paid much attention, until my last year. Somehow the timing worked because it was soon after that relationship of his ended that things began for us. For some reason I was intrigued by him. We had a mutual friend who would come to games and both of us would chat with him. I was a student worker for the marketing department and was at every single game to implement the promotions. There was always a lot of off time, though, so I could chat away.

 

I tried to play semi-coy but that lasted like a week. AT and I started chatting even more at games and even after. I mentioned something about a shoulder problem I was having and how I was going to start physical therapy basically for massages to work out all the knots that were screwing things up. He said I should get in touch with him and he’d take a look if I wanted. So… I am pretty positive I emailed him first, at his work email. It was very neutral and nothing scandalous, but then we began emailing back and forth. I almost immediately asked him for another email address, I did not want things to get out of control and have him get in trouble. I went into his training room one day and he worked on me a bit, it was definitely funny.

 

Soon after that, I went to dinner with him and a couple other people from the department after a game. It was all very innocent, but with that ridiculous sexual tension that pops up when you both know you want it not to be innocent. There were moments where he and I were just joking with each other and being silly, and the other 2 people (guys) we were with HAD to have known. The boys spoke of going to a particular bar that night soon after dinner…

 

My friend and I decided to go to that same bar, how weird!?! I mean, it was sooo strange! HAHA. It was a good night, a bunch of people were out and everyone was having fun. I was SO nervous. I knew that something was going to happen and I could not believe how nervous I was. In fact, I believe that I got ill. I had only drank 1 or 2 cocktails, so it was definitely not the alcohol. I remember him getting text messages from his ex whom he said was watching Sex and The City and thought he was her “Big.” For a while I would call her “Carrie Bradshaw” because I didn’t know her name or want to … haha.

 

The person I had gone to the bar with had long since left. In fact, my car was at her house. AT got an invite from one of the football guys to an after-hours. So… we went. He had me drive his BMW there and we did not stay too long. It was noticed that we went and left together, though. When we left, I was driving again. I did not know the area very well and asked which way I should go. His response: “If you take a left, you get to your car. If you take a right, you get to my condo.”

 

I took a right. And so it began…

 

 

3. I am very tired today. I think yesterday had more of a draining effect than I initially expected. Work was rough and I am feeling lonely. It may just be a bad week for me but I’m missing Unofficial a lot and I am feeling slightly pessimistic about the current state of “us.” I know we are fine but I want more from him… more effort or something. It’s been almost 2 weeks since I last saw him and we have yet to make plans for our next date. Now I have to put myself on a leash and not call, not text etc. I didn’t make any such efforts today. Who knows if he noticed… I think I’m just exhausted and being moody.

 

 

4. On a bright note… I believe that Work Crush is working both Friday and Saturday night this weekend! *Le Sigh*